Go to camp son

I have been emotional all day. Frustrated and irritable and unsure of the reason. 

Today was the day all the clothes were cleaned and bags packed and lots of conversation about being brave and having fun doing new things. 

To all who know me when I was younger, to all who met me as a camp professional... I am wrecked! The parent side is hard, harder than I ever imagined. 

My oldest is going to kids camp, church camp, elementary faith camp and I can't deal. 

Nothing can prepare you for this. I was not the momma who stressed with daycare or going to work, sending my boys to school, or a night with grandparents but a week away is a lot!!

I am emotional, feeling unprepared, and altogether odd. 

I have seen it all as a camp professional-  good kids, bullies, hard life's, privilege, lonely, blessed, scared, awakening, wrecked, changed, saved, dark, light, the extreme extroverts, introverts, homesick, and never met a situation that was off kid. 

But, but, but... who is my kid, how will they react, can they be brave, take the challenge, embrace courage??? I am wrecked! 

I am seeking God for peace, for wisdom, for revolution, for salvation and a heart for him. I know he can B do it all. 

Former camp professionals, share your wisdom. Share your love. Share your prayers. 

In love- 

The crazy mom

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