Then there was marriage...

Then there was marriage...

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Happy 33rd Year

On the eve of my thirty-third year I feel the need to reflect a bit. Jesus did such amazing things in his 33rd year, although I am sure he did amazing things each year of his life. I can not compare to Jesus but I can give him all the glory for the life I have had and have. 

Born Laura Denae Cook on December 19th, at 11:55pm I disrupted my father's Christmas work party hours earlier as my mother started to get herself dinner. No dinner and no going home to get the bag as I was due to come the 20th and their third child it would not be a lengthy labor. My mother was determined to have me on the 19th, as she feared from a dream if I was born on the 20th I would be her third son and not her anticipate first daughter. With five minutes to spare, here I am a girl!

I arrived home Christmas Eve or day, not sure, to two brothers. Not what they were wanting under the tree that year but hey they grew to love me. Raised in a house of love and lots of fun I never knew how blessed I was till I left the house as a young adult. I still feel honored that God placed me in such a home.

The biggest moment of my life happened at camp the summer before I turned 10. I said the sinners prayer and accepted Christ as Lord of my life and best friend while sitting on a rock outside my cabin. My life was altered for eternity! By the age of 14, I had committed to serve him in any vocation he called me to. I currently accepted the job of wife and mommy, which is the most humbling and I believe God honoring thing I can do for this time of my life. Also, toughest job I have had.

I graduated high school from Inola High School in 2000 and attended the University of Central Oklahoma graduating with a Bachelors in 2004. I lived in New York and Texas before returning home to meet the second greatest man to change my life.

In May 2009, Robert Arlyn Clary asked me out on a date. By the third weekend, third date I knew he was feircly different and God had allowed my heart to completely and utterly fall in love with this man. September 18th, he proposed and I said yes. By February 20th, 2010 we were married and the journey of us truly began. On Memorial weekend Bobby would fall thirty feet crushing his leg and wrist so badly doctors wondered if he would use them the same ever again. God would triumph in us and in Bobby body as God worked his miracles. By the end of 2010 we were not just another newlywed couple, we were bound to one another beyond my understanding. God had transformed my heart to beat for Bobby. Still crazy how I can be more in love with this man each year.

September 7th, 2011 I gave birth to our first born a son, Blaine Robert Clary. Just shy of two years later on July 24th, I would have our second son Elijah William Clary. Those boys are God's blessing to me. I suddenly feel I am no longer Laura but Mommy. I am who they need me to be. 

I can not begin to guess what the 33rd year looks like but I am thankful for each day leading up to it and pray I have the opportunity to serve God each day hince forward.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

God's Angel

Got a phone call this afternoon that is always hard to hear, someone you love(d) passed away. 

Gerald Burk was not just someone I knew or onced loved. He was a angel God sent into my life at a very young age to show me unconditional, Godly love. I called him Grandpa Gerald since I can remember and all through school he loved me as a grandaughter. When I moved back to Inola and worked for the church at age 26 he acted like I never left after high school. Each time I saw him I got a huge hug and eyes that looked into and told you "I care," the same loved I received each Sunday since I was a wee child.  

One summer, my first at camp, Gerald was my best friend. I had no friends, no girls wanted to sleep by me, play or go to classes with me. No one wanted to sit by me at chapel but Gerald did. He walked me to breakfast, classes, canteen and during free time sat next to me and encouraged the skill of people watching (or boy watching). He was amazing. Taught me the one key fact that lead me to accept Chirst as my savior the summer before going into 4th grade...Jesus is and always will be your friend, forever there for you. 

Gerald's heart was that of Abraham, a friend of God, bent towards compassionate love, forgiving, kind love. 

I have repeatedly told my mom I need to stop by First Baptist to introduce him to my husband and boys. I wanted to show him how God continues to work in my life. How I strive to have a heart like his and Fern's. How I desire a love with my husband like their marriage.

He will never know now, not till we stand together on the streets of gold. Then I will hug his neck and tell him, "Thank you, for giving me God's love. I can never express how much you gave me." 

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

It all changes the 24th

Last night was the last night Bobby and I would put just one boy to bed, pray over one boy, read God's word to just one boy and anticipate tears sometime in the night through the monitor from just one boy.

This morning would be the last morning I go get just one boy after a tearful awakening, put just one boy next to me in bed, cuddle with just one boy and have a routine for just one boy.

Tonight we will drop Blaine off with Bobby's parents. We will return home to make sure my bags are packed, get hospital goodies bag ready, set the alarm for 5am, and probably watch a movie as the almost parents of two boys.

Early we will rise Wednesday morning and drive the few miles from our condo to St. Francis Hospital where the staff will begin to prep me for our second sons arrival to the world. Sometime during the day, our parents, family.and friends will be notified Elijah is almost here and they will arrive to meet him and congratulate us as parents of our new baby boy.

Yes, the 24th will be a great day. The 23rd will a day to remember as a great day too, the last day of being parents to just one child. A wonderful child, who made us want another because he was so great to have in our lives.

So blessed to have today, so excited for tomorrow!

Monday, June 17, 2013

Elijah William Clary

We named our son.

Baby boy #2 is officially Elijah William Clary.

I am so excited that I can call him by name and not just Thor. Although I think Thor was a great nickname and may hang around.

Bobby thought of the name on Friday night and said it to me. I think Eli is cute too so I started processing the meaning, calling him both Elijah and Eli, the whole name (practicing yelling it out) and we ran it by a few of those we count as dear to us. My sweet niece is not a fan but once she sees him she will love it.

On Sunday, Father's Day Bobby announced to his dad and the family the babies full name. I think Bill is honored that the baby is named after him. We respect him so much and I have been a fan of William as a middle name since we found out it was a boy (even with Blaine I mentioned it).

During family devotional time tonight everyone was able to feel Eli and daddy mobbed him around some. Bog brother Blaine felt him too bit was a little unsure, although stewards my belly got tons and tons of kisses.

Can't wait to hold sweet Elijah in my arms.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Second Round of Fun

At yesterday's (Monday's 6-5-13) Ob check up the doctor immediately assessed me as I walked in and the discussion began on when my second reduction would happen. My fluids were already high again. It had been 8 days since my first reduction. After a brief talk between me, Dr and my hubby it was decided that to keep from heading to hospital on emergency I would go in Tuesday morning at 6:45 am to have a second reduction.

I took Blaine to mom and dads to stay the night so I would not have to worry about him. Bobby was going to go ahead and go to work so this leaves me alone at hospital.

Reduction went relatively smooth since they gave me statal before the whole thing began to keep baby from going nuts like the first time. A second doctor came in to see procedure but was not able to stay the whole time. The doctor took off 2200ml of amniotic fluid filling both vacuum bottles to top with no room left.

This reduction seemed to be much more painful since it was done more to my right side than right above belly button. It felt like it went through more muscle at that spot, also had more paineful contractions during the procedure.

After the fact, having some pain in my right lower abdominal area. They think just muscle or nerve pain but it hurts...a lot. Can't get comfortable and just tired too. Baby is doing just fine and from what I see looks like contractions are slow.

Wednesday, doing much better now. Pain subsided during the night and hoping to.just take it easy today. Bobby is taking vacation the rest of this week so excited that we get to spend some family time and marriage time before the new little man arrives.

Friday, May 31, 2013

Friday News

Good News today

Went to see hight risk doctor today and have detailed ultrasound of baby Thor. My fluid was again building up ans now at 32 (25 is high). The baby was also measuring large, in fact he meassured 98% and almost 5 pounds. Those are good things if I have him early, scary if I carry him full term and have 15 pound boy. I will take those risks I guess.

Each organ looked to be functioning great and strong pair of lungs. The doctor could not find any issues with anything. The umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck but not tight and Blaine had the same thing too.

He would like to test me weekly for diabetes and continue to do weekly scans of baby, which my regular OB can perform.

I have been asked to stop all exercising and no long walks and go easy since my contractions are still happening. Big fear Dr said was a membrane rupturing. I guess that is only thing I don't understand. What are membranes? He said due to water I was already a high risk for that. Dr said I should also nit travel more than 30 minutes from Tulsa so no long trips or even to the City. BOO to that but baby safety a must.

There is nothing I can do at this point to slow the amount to amniotic build up. I will have another reduction when contractions get going again, I can't sleep or breath, in pain or just too uncomfortable to move. It will be an overnight stay this time. Dr said he expected me to have it within week. The reduction is not harmful to baby but nit having one can be worse forcing baby to come early.

After 34 weeks he suggests I stop everything and allow natural labor to happen.

So thankful for my mother-in-law for coming today and taking care of my Blaine-y Boy.
Thanks to everyone else for all your prayers, call, texts and love. We appreciate you all so much.

Monday, May 27, 2013

My Amnio-reduction and this week's news

I want to document pretty much everything about this crazy pregnancy now so I don't forget this crazy ride.
I posted I had an amnio reduction on Sunday afternoon. My doctor did it since the high risk doctor was not available. He had done many before so I was okay with it.

They brought the ultrasound machine into my hospital room, a bucket that said amnio reduction and said let's do this. The nurse laid out the vacuum bottles, needle, gloves, tubing and cleaning material while my doctor measured and checked baby and best place to do the reduction. There are four pockets areas and they want to do the largest and furthest away from baby. Bobby was in the room the whole time and experienced it with me, which was nice. I was asked if I needed numbing meds but told most don't use it. I opted out of the extra shot and went for no meds. The doctor talked the nurse through her steps and they began. I later asked the nurse how common this procedure was and she replied she had only seen three in her entire career. She had been in nursing a long time.

The stick was initially a very weird feeling, more pressure than pain. The baby kept trying to reach or touch the needle so the doctor had to keep pulling it up or over to keep him from nicking himself. That part was stressful to me and doctor. Finally the nurse mentioned a medication that would relax the baby and doctor said give it now! Once I had that it was much smoother sailing. It took two vacuum bottles to contain the 1875ml (almost two one liters) of amniotic fluid he removed and the baby still had a ton to move around it. It lasts right about one hour for the whole process (needle in me the whole time). It was crazy but you could see the difference in my stomach size. I later looked it up and the fluid weighed over 3.3 pounds.

I left hospital on Sunday night with the understanding I would see my doctor on Tuesday and would take anti-contraction meds every 4-8 hours as needed. I was so excited and relieved to be home. Bobby and I spent Monday, Memorial day enjoying the day with a little shopping, time in Inola relaxing outside and then at home chilling. By Monday night my stomach was already getting harder and uncomfortable.

Tuesday, Bobby and I went to doctor to do a follow up ultrasound. The doctor needed to monitor the babies heart, lungs and fluid. Heart and lungs looked okay but fluid was building back way too fast. I was as already close to serious level again and it had only been 48 hours. My doctor called a high risk specialist to see his opinion. They decided I would go on a medicine I had been given in hospital to help reduce fluid, stop early labor but would also advance the babies heart and lungs (possibly too early). I would need to visit specialist for him to see baby and monitor fluid. I go on Friday this week.

So all being said, I am trying to relax and stay confident in my knowledge that God is knitting this sweet boy and ready knows his and my future. God is in control!

Keep us in your prayers.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Dang good Doctor was right...wished him to be wrong.

After waking up in pain at 1am on Saturday morning, I took myself and Blaine to Mimi's for help. I took over their massive tub and Blaine got spoiled by his Mimi. The pain lessened for a bit after an hour bath but returned with a vengeance. Called my Dr for advice and received a muscle relaxed. It did dull the pain but revealed I had been having contractions too. Those did not subside so Bobby and I decided to be safe and go to hospital. My amazing Dr was already here so able to assess me and get me on drugs to stop the contractions I was having every two minutes but was barely dilated so that's good.
More test, blood, iv, shots that hurt bad-rather stung bad and antibiotics dir to blood in urine.
Expected to get a reduction of fluid in morning but taking a pill to help reduce it every two hours now. Crazy...feel like a drug lady.
Send Bobby home to get some sleep and so he could bring essentials to me in morning. If reduction goes smooth there is a chance I could be released with the understanding I will return for another fun booty shot.
That is all I know so far.
Keep up the prayers that Thor stays where he belongs for as long as God needs him there. We want to go home with him, not without him.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Not in my plans

May 22, 2013.

Two weeks ago the doctor informed what I thought...I have a lot of amniotic fluid. He was not concerned too much but decided to see me every two weeks. Which brings us to today 5-22-23.

Today was different. It was serious and detailed in information. My mom and niece were with me and all I could think was I wish Bobby was here so I could tune this out and just see the baby in the ultrasound. That is my favorite part normally. No pictures today just lots of measuring. I tried and still trying to trust God and not stress.

Let me say I am 30 weeks today. I am huge! I look like I put a beach ball under my shirt that weighs as much as a bowling ball. My stomach is tight, hard and very uncomfortable. No stretch marks but I look like I was due yesterday or rather two weeks ago. Strangers and even those close to me think so too.

Today I was diagnosed officially with polyhydramnios, meaning too much amniotic fluid. I read and researched the normal fluid lev is between 9-25cm. They measure with ultrasound measuring the four pockets around the baby. I was over 25 at the third and around 37cm total.

I was told I could go into labor at any time and the results of that are just not okay with me. Tiny baby, hospital stay, danger in prolasped cord, and more that just don't work for me.

We are suppose to go camping in two weeks. I go see the Dr two days before we leave. he said he will let us know how smart that will be or not. Bobby is going to that appointment with me. Today he already told me it sounded crazy. Not a good sign.

Details of what I found online and what Dr informed me of is below.
Please keep us in your prayers.


What is polyhydramnios?
Polyhydramnios occurs when there's too much amniotic fluid around baby.

How common is polyhydramnios?
It’s pretty rare. It only happens in about 1 percent of pregnancies.

How will polyhydramnios affect my baby?
Polyhydramnios may increase the risk of premature birth, excess fetal growth and stillbirth. It can affect you because it may cause high blood pressure, urinary tract infections, your water breaking early, placental abruption, umbilical cord prolapse (umbilical cord comes before the baby in birth), c-section and heavy bleeding after delivery

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Baby brain and cheese

Wednesday was my Wal-Mart day. Put all things on my.list and went. Thought I did pretty good and Blaine behaved. Bobby wanted burgers so I got the stuff for that too. After working out, I started cooking when I realized...we have no cheese. Well, you can't have burgers without cheese can you. So I grabbed my wallet, told Bobby to watch food and headed for the over priced Dollar Store, where nothing is a dollar.
Got cheese and opened whet to find no card to pay with. Checked care, told cashier I would be back, realized I had $3 in changed but then saw cheese was over $4 so again said I would be back when something happened.
Sweet lady behind me showed me that just cause I live in Tulsa foes not mean there is not small town kindness. She paid for the cheese, looked at me and said, "don't worry it is baby brain." I told her I had even been to WM that day with my 18month old but still could not remember anything. Gave the lady a hug and headed the one block home.
When I got home I went into panick mode on where my card could be. Emptied purse but nothing, already checked car but nothing, then looked at wallet again to see the card was strangely placed upside down in totally the wrong place. Oh...then I felt worse, had it the whole time
Bobby laughed and said must have been what God needed me to go through.

Thank you Jesus for showing me kindness at the strangest most perfect times.

Oh being pregnant