April 11th, 2013

Today was no easy day. It was a day I will remember for some time I must admit. Heartwrenching, tearful, full of prayers and for myself a plea with God.

Today, I watched as a sorority sister lay her son just one day shy of two years old to bed to spend eternity with Jesus.

Why does God take the young to be with him I do not know, nor do I understand.
The parallels of our lives are way too simular to pass over. Blaine is but 5 months younger than this sweet boy, known for his laughs and hugs. The mother is carrying her second child due in July of this year just a few weeks before I am due. She is from a small town, married only a few years and devoted to the same church we attend, just a different campus.

It could have been Blaine God took. I thank God daily it was not. I do not want my faith tested to see if I could pass such a test. I am not sure.

When Bobby fell, I knew we would struggle and survive and we did. When Blaine was born and co.instantly sick, I knew he would get better and after 6 months he did. When we decided I would stay at home and not work, I knew it would be hard financially and it is but we get through each week. I give God the glory for each situation and pray these are our only tests.

I am thankful for the deep faith of these parents and how they celebrated their sons life. I pray for their unending comfort from the God of Comfort.

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